24th October, Maya

Hi bloggers and readers!

Hey guys~ Sorry I know, I haven't posted any post at all recently. I have been kinda busy with a few things, and also my mood was really really bad~ But oh well I'm much better now! So I'm back! XD

Well let's talk a bit about how was it for me for the past few weeks, well I am still serving my Internship although recently it has started to become a little harder for me?

Never really did have any problem when I just started however these days we just started a few new things and I don't really know how to do it YET so it's quite stressful

I won't deny that I have been dealing with mistakes at work... and my boss is certainly weren't very happy about it... Sooooo ouhhh I better hurry and pick myself up with the new things.

Some of my friends asked why I'm not posting any videos at all~ Well I love to but then again, actually I haven't really had any time of doing it at all, considering that the only time I have is night time and if you have read my previous POST. I actually kinda sacrificing my sleep to edit them, haha well I don't personally mind that

But knowing that I may be dozing off during work that is bad..(I was caught recently for dozing off while staring at the computer) I'm quite shock by how tired I am sometime.. LOL

plus...

It has been quite an emotional period for me during the past few weeks

So I don't think I should do anything.. everything will be too negative and wowwwww I don't want that

Well during those EMO period I picked up a new habit! :)

Journal-ing 

I name this book, "Maya" inspired by the word "my"

Maya means Virtual or Imaginary in Indonesian so yeah fit this book quite well haha it's filled with my virtual imagination towards my life, HAHAHA okay lame.
 
But I certainly do enjoy writing it~ and if you found this book do contact me haha my contacts are inside HAHA XD

Why I decided to start Journal-ing was because of an inspiration. I was inspired by Philip Wang from Wong Fu Production. When I first cane across his blog and the I saw this post of his that mentioned about his journals. He said...

"I often, very often, read back through old journals. I like to search for patterns, reminders, lessons. They are my life’s “textbooks”. I can see how things I felt were so dire, pan out. I see resolutions to problems and drama. I see worries that ultimately did not need to be worried about. "

which yeah, I like the idea of having our personal life "textbooks". Some lesson are meant to be remember so it will be better if we actually take the initiative of noting them down, and remind ourselves of the lessons we've learned or maybe simply laugh at how stupid we were in the past..? haha that isn't so bad either..?

and yeah, I've been writing a lot lately, more than what I wrote in my blog haha but then the content ain't very fantastic to be shown for others anyway, there are good and bad contents just that these days were mostly bad.

Well how should I say this? I constantly finding myself feeling lost~?

Questioning myself for what I wanna do in the future and I realized I have no right answer that it terrifies me.

Which then now I'm thinking, there actually NO RIGHT ANSWER for this. We can't really predict our future? So yeah, the right answer is perhaps simply do what we are really passionate about, and work on it? :)

This came out of my suggested videos in my channel so I decided to watch it and yeah, learnt a few things. (there are still other celebrities who did this #IAm campaign too) they are all rather inspiring, hearing how they struggle and the TIME they took~

like the one by Michelle Phan she said "It doesn't matter how small your beginnings are, it doesn't matter.. All that matter is how big your passion is"

Haha sorry for all the quotation that I've been doing, but I really enjoy it hearing all these. It just made feel that "Hey, I shouldn't give up just yet, these people pull through cause they didn't give up!"

So yeah I don't know how many of you feel the same as I do.

Anyway this post has been really random. haha but then all I wanna say is..

 I believe we all have the right to strive for that something that we are really passionate about, and sure some people around us may not approve it but then if you really like it then you should really work on it. Don't live in regret~ And I hope I'm able to live mine as well hahahaha let's walk on and see

anyway thanks for reading my random post! I'll ensure I post my next post soon~ :)

5th October, Living my life to the fullest~

Hi blogger and readers!

So if you have read my previous posts "Path~" and "Moving On~"(Do click the link if you haven't) this is it's continuation~ :)

in the previous post I mentioned that I'm on this discovery journey and I am still~

What happened yesterday, well it happened so I have to move on~
and how is it going to be tomorrow? I don't know. It's a mystery...

So I have TODAY, and all I can say is I should live today to the fullest, by doing things that I am keen to do~

And so I would like to present to you guys!

MY 2ND VIDEOS IS OUT! :)

After finished taking the videos on the 30th September, I started right away on the editing of this video. and yea I still have my Intenship during the day, so I only get to edit the video during night time.

I spent 3 days of this week sleeping at 3AM to edit this video...

It was really tiring~ because I have to leave my house at like 7.30AM the next day so that I won't be late for work.

So I literally only get to sleep like 3 to 4 hour a day.

Not really trying to ask for pity.. okay maybe a litte? HAHAHA I just hope you guys would enjoy it.

I certainly did enjoy it, well as I was editing the videos, new ideas keep popping out of my head and even during working.

I told myself that I AM WORKING, So I should focus on MY WORK..?

But I simply can't stop thinking about my videos haha. I DID FINISH MY WORKS THOUGH!

During my free time in work, I tend to came out with new ideas, things like

-Improving my current videos?
-Ideas for the NEXT videos?
-How to make my videos more interesting?

Things like these and yea~ I actually have the ideas already. My work place is quite a good thinking spot.

I would like to hear how you guys think of my current YouTube Videos I hope to hear some comments haha and I have new ideas of my next videos already so I will try to work on it! :)

If you enjoy it hope to hear some "I'll stay tune" from you guys :P

I remember when I started blogging and start to become rather active on it, I started saying
"I am a blogger"

It sounds sort of boasting, but I was really proud of it, because I wanted to do it a long time ago. Same goes for being a "YouTuber"

I wanted to start my very own YouTube channel and blog for a really long time already but there are always things that stop that thought...

I always feel that I'm not ready for this.

Well it's kinda like I have to step out my comfort zone thing and I always feel "NOT READY"
"I'm scared how people will look at me"

I kinda scared how it will turn out to be, sort of like "what if I failed?"

So I decided to throw away the ideas of being a blogger or Youtuber..

Which, now it makes me think "Why did I?"

I kinda regretted not starting them a little bit more earlier because I have to say I have not been very true to myself.?

I mean, I'm enjoying what I'm doing now.

blogging and YouTube-ing is FUN, though it may feel uncomfortable like 

Thinking how some people may think of me? LOL but.. I guess I don't really wanna care now~ so "f*ck it~ I'm just gonna do it :)"

"IT WILL BE FUN!"

Each time I came out with new ideas of a next video I will be like~

Yea~ basically I really enjoy and LOVE IT

Whenever new ideas came into my head.

I CAN HARDLY WAIT TO START ON IT!! :)

My best friend ranko, would hear my excitement and she'll be like "Chill dude, we'll do it soon"

Yea things like that happened, SO YEA. I don't know how it may turned out to be but I hope you guys would enjoy my videos~

I'm still new at this so, if it's not that good, do bear with me :P 

I will do my best to improve on it. and perhaps you guys can gimme some comments!! :)

I know doing things like "blogging" or "Youtubing"(Is that consider a word?)

MAY NOT benefit me in the future? well who knows right? It MAY benefit me? LOL I hope

But at least I can tell myself that I'm happy~ and living my life to the fullest! :)

Because I'm doing what I LIKE and WANT to do. 

"ME"

Yea I can proudly tell myself that, because I stood out of my own comfort zone

And I'm F*cking doing it now! So yea

Let's hope things goes along WELL XD

~ It shall be fun~ :P

This is one of the few things that inspire me~

And I hope one day I can do the same as this guy :)

Well of course I won't know whether I could but I'll try for it! XD

We all should live our life doing whatever we enjoy doing, we only live ONCE

So why waste this life not living the way we wanted it. Well I believe there's no such thing as "WASTING YOUR LIFE"

Whatever we are doing, be it studying? working? resting? dating? or whatsoever we are doing it for a purpose.

We all do it for a REASON so what I would like you to know is to live YOUR DREAM just live the way you want it to be~ do whatever you like and just DO IT.

Some people may tell you things like

"Oh it's a waste of time" 

"You need to get a life"

"It's stupid, why are you even doing it?"

"Erm... Are you that free?"

"Look, it's not worth it.."

You're probably thinking "nahh people aren't so mean" well i'm here to tell you THERE ARE SUCH PEOPLE, and I met them~ so yea

I don't want to one day grow old feeling regret..

I want to have the experience of doing what I really want to do~

I'm glad I'm doing it now~

YEA! FINALLY

I may have new passion along my life and I promised myself I will do it~ :)

one of my biggest dream now that I wanna achieve one day in the future is

~*I wanna travel and see the world*~

This shall be the biggest project in my life definitely in my bucket list #BucketList

and of course then make a good journal out of that trip and then share it with everyone~ MY BIGGEST DREAM~

And for this I thank you all for reading this long post. Thank you for reading all the way till here

I hope you will continue to read my blog, I'll see you in my next post! :)

and always remember to

~*Live Your Live To The Fullest*~

Thank you!:)

Satriyoga